Well, I started this bible study tonight... the workbook actually. The group of girls seems pretty good... they are all around my age. I'm thinking the oldest might be early 30s, all pretty much newly married. So its a little akward for me b/c they all know each other but I'm hoping to get past that quickly.

Anyways, back to the workbook... The first day was talking about how believing God means that you have faith in God. And not only is it faith but a faith that is active... meaning you are continually faithful. I realized that's not me all that much. And while I am certain of my salvation, my faith is not something that is continual. I'm going through a time of unbelief I think. Not believeing that God would give me the desires of my heart, unbelief in myself to be open enough to hear His will in my life... just in general. Its funny how that applies just to me... if I pray for others, I truly believe He will answer.

So its my prayer and plea that I get past that. I want to have the faith that is active and where I am able to be completely and totally satisfied in Him with not thoughts of someone else there to attempt to fill His place in my heart. Like right now, I feel alone... and I want to pray or just listen to music but I want someone here with me... when in all reality, God is with me!

I was realizing today how little God is talked about among my friends. Sure, we may have the occasional prayer request for someone... but we never take the time to pray with one another. That's something I'd like to change... or just sit and be still and listen to worship music together.

So that's what is going through my head at the moment... I have a job interview next Thursday. Its in the Dean's office of Human Sciences working mostly with people give contributions to the college. Please be lifting me up in that area!