The Christmas Season

I'm so glad that it is finally the start of December... I love the Christmas season. Everyone seems to be a little more mindful of giving (and not just where presents are concerned) and I love the way everything is decorated and clean. Last Friday was the Carol of Lights. I went to it with a few people from the singles group and it was so much fun actually hanging out in a group. It's been so long since I've done that and we had a great night. First, the Carol of Lights, and then we went to dinner at Ruby Tequilas (I thought of you, Jana). Then we went home and watched "Elf" which I hadn't seen before, but unforunately, I fell asleep.

It seems that lately I'm struggling a little more with insecurities about the way I look and going through the whole single thing. I think I'm noticing couples more and more too... I'm trying to fight the whole insecurity thing because I do know that one day my future husband will think I'm beautiful... and hey, at least that cute waiter from Rooftop found something appealing about me! As for seeing couples more, yesterday I went with my mom to the airport to pick up this lady for mom's work. Well, as I'm waiting in the car, there's guys coming out and they were so excited to see their significant others. It's weird to be happy for someone that you don't know, but I was. I know they probably all have their troubled times, but you could see how in love they were with their girlfriends, wives and kids. I know I don't think about wanting marriage as much as wanting to have a man in my life, just b/c I haven't had that first... and I know that 25 is still sort of young, but... still. I do know that by keeping in my thoughts that God's timing is perfect and that He has someone amazing in store for me is helpful. I just wish I could get this desire out of my head for a little while.

So that's where my thoughts have been lately... I'll try to post soon!