My current thought...

So I've been trying to find the positive in everything lately... and it really helps. Although, for some reason, the start of the Christmas season brought out my insecurities a little more. Which, of course, is always lovely.

But this is my current thought: When is it going to be that a guy I like will actually like me back?!? Come on already! There's this one guy in particular that is not my usual type (as in he's farther from my height than my usual closer to my height)...

I do know that God has someone amazing in store for me, that will be better than I can imagine (although not in a fairy tale sort of way). I know that God has blessed me from being in relationships that didn't last because that saves me from most heartache. And I know He is listening, even when I don't really like the outcome. For ex, the cute waiter... yep, I prayed that if God didn't want it to happen, then the door would shut... and I've been back four times and no Kyle. Which isn't fun when you just want to fill like someone has an interest in you! Especially since he rarely gets a night off! LOL I'm just kind of wishing it would happen... I guess God is still teaching me patience and I know that it will be worth the wait when it happens.

So for today, even the positives aren't really helping me with what I want in my life... so I'll keep praying!

oooh, 2 posts in one day.