Well, its Monday...

I hope everyone has a good start of the week...

I found out late last night that I didn't get the job I wanted at "B". I'm not really sure why I was so "certain" that I would get the job but I was. Just a bunch of little things seemed to fit together to where I thought I would. Of course, I was trying to tell myself not to get my hopes up, but too late. So now I'm at a total loss on what to do... I have another job opportunity that I find out about this week. The people there (for the most part) were really nice and seemed to care about my "future" and not just the current job, but it seems so lacking now. I guess we'll see if I get an offer or not.

I'm definitely a little annoyed and confused at God though. He knows that the two things that have caught my interest in the past were homebuilding and charity/nonprofit places. So why tempt me with a job that has a little of both in it. That's what I don't get. What was the point of putting me in the presence of a company that I would love to work for not just once, but TWICE? Then it gets taken away because He leads them to another person that's right for the job. Don't get me wrong, I am happy that they found someone that was "best" for the job... the people that work there and the company deserve it. And the lady there sent me a really sweet letter that was encouraging and praying that I'll find where God wants me to be. And maybe it is a test... I keep talking about waiting on God's timing and how I actually do want to do His will in my life... but I really wouldn't mind if He had given me this job. I know that's the easy way out but it would still seem like He's listening and answering my prayers instead of getting stuck waiting again and again and again. Especially since coming up fairly soon is my "one year" anniversary of looking for a new job.

I know this whole thing will pass, and eventually I'll see God's plan and be happy with it, but I just feel lost, confused and hurt at the moment. Wasn't this the "perfect" Monday post? ;)