Turning over a new leaf...

So last night I decided to try to snap out of this "funk". I can feel myself getting sucked in and that's not a fun feeling to have, especially when you don't like feeling the way you do. Also, I had a friend pretty much say that it was annoying and the last thing I want to do is burden others. SO! I'm going to attempt, with God's help, to get out of this. If you have any verses of encouragement or any verses to share when you don't really know the future, what God's Will is for you, or just when you might be feeling a little hopeless, put them in the comment line. I'm making some cards to carry around with me. Also, pray for me job wise, with the current job. My attitude here is lacking and if I want to completely snap out of this, it means that I HAVE to be ok with where I am, b/c apparently this is where God wants me, hopefully just for the moment though.

Also, I'm borrowing this from another blog I read this week... (hope you don't mind, Jes). But if you are thankful for what you have then it helps take away the thoughts of what you don't have. So here goes! I'll start with my job first. Yep, the one that I don't really feel like waking up in the morning for... as evidenced by hitting the alarm 5 times. BUT God provided me with this job and for that I'm thankful. This job enables me to pay the bills and b/c of it, I have 4 coworkers that care about me. I'm thankful for my parents. My mom is one of the greatest moms ever and not only that, I'm happy that I can actually call her my friend. My dad is always supportive of me, even when he doesn't necessarily want to be. Plus, I *heart* his "stupid grin". My grandparents have been so supportive, always loving even when I don't necessarily see it and b/c of their support, I was blessed with what I do have. (sidenote: i'm thankful for the lady that yelled at us yesterday, realized her mistake and brought us cookies just now. Choc chip for breakfast!) I'm thankful for all my extended family. For the most part, I think I have one of the coolest families around. ;) For my cousin Nicole, she has always been a role model to me. Her faith and dedication to God is what I hope mine will be one day. And just for all the good times we've had, especially since those make up pretty much all of my childhood memories. For my cuz Jana, I know I can always count on her if I need a good laugh. For my roommate, Emily, its so nice to know that I have someone in my life who is consistently praying for me. My dear friend Christina, she is there for me... always willing to listen even though I'm sure she doesn't always want to depending on the topic. To my sleepy friend Julie, even though we don't always see each other on a regular basis, I know that she cares for me and is able to understand me completely. To Whit, thanks for always giving me a good time when we go out and always providing some amusing and dramatic story! To Kinsey, my newest friend, she is such an encouragement to me. She is just a wonderful person to be around. To Jes, well, I don't know you really but I'm so impressed by you. Your faith is such an encouragement and I hope that one day, others will see that same faith and love in God in myself. To my internet gang, I have made such an amazing group of friends, and not only that but Christian ones... you are my close friends throughout the work day. I love y'all lots even though we might never meet. To my two bible studies, I am so thankful that I have two places where I can go that are open and safe and that I feel free to share my experiences with one another and get encouragement and advice from both places. Last but not least, to God. Even though most of the time I feel distant from You, You are the one that is always patient and always there for me. So thank you for the times that You are holding me up even when I don't realize it. I only hope that one day I can clearly realize when we are walking hand in hand. God, thank you for each person you have put in my life and I pray that you will bless each and every one of them. Amen.