Thankfulness...
Well, its that time of year where the holidays are fast approaching. I love this time of year... all the decorations and times to give gifts. The little parties that everyone has... my house being totally cute! But its also a time to remember all that our Savior has done for us. Sometimes it still blows my mind that our salvation came from a little baby that was born on this earth.
Thanksgiving would be one holiday that I never really think much about though, minus the yummy food! I don't ever contemplate what I have to be thankful for... but this year, that is changing. It started on Monday night when a friend and I decided that we should try to follow the word and be thankful in every situation, whether it is good or bad. It really helps to change your view on things when you are having a bad day and you have to tell God that you are thankful for this because it could be a struggle that brings you closer to Him, or it will teach you something new. Whatever it is, God puts it in our lives for a purpose, and usually, even when we don't realize it, our reaction to it and our growth from it can be something that will just totally glorify God.
For me, the situation most on my mind is Grandma. I've been used to seeing her tired or kind of out of it, not thinking too clearly or speaking too clearly; but Monday, she was really tired and not talking, and that kind of scared me a little bit. Then yesterday, she was really talkative and aware of things around her... so that threw me too. But as hard as it has been or as hard as it will be in the future, I am so thankful for the opportunity to see her. I never really would have thought I would say that, as horrible as that may sound. Lately, I've tried to go every day, even if it is just to give my mom some company... but it is nice being able to leave every time knowing that Grandma knows how much I love her. I had issues with deaths in the past because I didn't feel like I got to say goodbye, and now, each time, I treat it like it is the last. Its not as depressing as it sounds... I'm just thankful for this time, even if I wish there was more times to talk about her past or little things like that.
Now to go on to superficial things, I've really been enjoying the singles group at my church. Sure there's like 5 or 6 others so its small, but we really have gotten to know each other more deeply. I just wish that we could all actually hang out on the weekends! But after bible study last night, which was held at the Metro Tower... an incredible view of the city by the way, four of us went to Sugar Browns. "Cloud 9" is SO good (steamer w/ toasted marshmellow and white chocolate). It was a lot of fun even if I did regret staying up late when I had to get up this morning!
Well, I guess I should start doing some work. On a random note, I'm thankful that I stopped hiccuping... that's not fun after 25 minutes! Have a blessed Wednesday!