Nothing much happening this week but I'm definitely looking forward to the season finale of Alias tonight! WOO HOO! 9PM Central time on ABC! Oh yeah, and LOST looks good too.

Hello everyone!

So did everyone have a great weekend? Mine was pretty good. I got to lay out at the swimming pool this weekend so that's nice and relaxing. In my pink and brown striped tankini. Yes, you read it correctly, I said pink. Scary, I know. Maybe its all in me growing up, I'm embracing my inner pink-ness.

My big accomplishment for the weekend was almost watching one whole DVD of "Scrubs" on Saturday. Not the most exciting way to spend time, but hey, I actually think it helps with boredom. Really... that's the only thing I've been able to watch/do and not still be bored with if I'm by myself. So way to go Scrubs! Other than swimming, griping over the Daytime Emmy's with a 'Net friend, hearing a good sermon on "Staying Sharp" and wishing that I didn't have to hear yet another verse on God's timing --I get the point, God-- I got to spend a little time with a couple of girls while we watched some tv. Oh, and I got to talk on the phone with Nicole! (Hi Mommy!) AND I got my presents from my "Bush" side of the family. So if anyone wants to come over for drinks, head to my house. LOL I have enough glasses for everyone! My small group will be drinking more kool-aid then they know what to do with!

Well, I know each one of you are just beside yourselves with jealousy over my life. It's hard being the envy of everyone, but someone has to fill those shoes.

"B" is for Baby...

So I'm very excited and pleased to announce that around January 10th, there will be a new addition to my family! Its so crazy to think of my cuz Nicole being a mom, although she will make a great one! So now I'm trying to come up with a "name" for me. I mean, I guess the kiddo can know me just by my name... I don't call my aunts "Aunt Judy" or anything. But saying "hey, kid, this is your 2nd cousin..." is just lame!

So if y'all have any ideas of a good name, feel free to post them. I don't want to steal Jana's limelight as "Auntie" but I don't want to be a second cuz either!

Isn't that baby outfit the cutest?!

Turning over a new leaf...

So last night I decided to try to snap out of this "funk". I can feel myself getting sucked in and that's not a fun feeling to have, especially when you don't like feeling the way you do. Also, I had a friend pretty much say that it was annoying and the last thing I want to do is burden others. SO! I'm going to attempt, with God's help, to get out of this. If you have any verses of encouragement or any verses to share when you don't really know the future, what God's Will is for you, or just when you might be feeling a little hopeless, put them in the comment line. I'm making some cards to carry around with me. Also, pray for me job wise, with the current job. My attitude here is lacking and if I want to completely snap out of this, it means that I HAVE to be ok with where I am, b/c apparently this is where God wants me, hopefully just for the moment though.

Also, I'm borrowing this from another blog I read this week... (hope you don't mind, Jes). But if you are thankful for what you have then it helps take away the thoughts of what you don't have. So here goes! I'll start with my job first. Yep, the one that I don't really feel like waking up in the morning for... as evidenced by hitting the alarm 5 times. BUT God provided me with this job and for that I'm thankful. This job enables me to pay the bills and b/c of it, I have 4 coworkers that care about me. I'm thankful for my parents. My mom is one of the greatest moms ever and not only that, I'm happy that I can actually call her my friend. My dad is always supportive of me, even when he doesn't necessarily want to be. Plus, I *heart* his "stupid grin". My grandparents have been so supportive, always loving even when I don't necessarily see it and b/c of their support, I was blessed with what I do have. (sidenote: i'm thankful for the lady that yelled at us yesterday, realized her mistake and brought us cookies just now. Choc chip for breakfast!) I'm thankful for all my extended family. For the most part, I think I have one of the coolest families around. ;) For my cousin Nicole, she has always been a role model to me. Her faith and dedication to God is what I hope mine will be one day. And just for all the good times we've had, especially since those make up pretty much all of my childhood memories. For my cuz Jana, I know I can always count on her if I need a good laugh. For my roommate, Emily, its so nice to know that I have someone in my life who is consistently praying for me. My dear friend Christina, she is there for me... always willing to listen even though I'm sure she doesn't always want to depending on the topic. To my sleepy friend Julie, even though we don't always see each other on a regular basis, I know that she cares for me and is able to understand me completely. To Whit, thanks for always giving me a good time when we go out and always providing some amusing and dramatic story! To Kinsey, my newest friend, she is such an encouragement to me. She is just a wonderful person to be around. To Jes, well, I don't know you really but I'm so impressed by you. Your faith is such an encouragement and I hope that one day, others will see that same faith and love in God in myself. To my internet gang, I have made such an amazing group of friends, and not only that but Christian ones... you are my close friends throughout the work day. I love y'all lots even though we might never meet. To my two bible studies, I am so thankful that I have two places where I can go that are open and safe and that I feel free to share my experiences with one another and get encouragement and advice from both places. Last but not least, to God. Even though most of the time I feel distant from You, You are the one that is always patient and always there for me. So thank you for the times that You are holding me up even when I don't realize it. I only hope that one day I can clearly realize when we are walking hand in hand. God, thank you for each person you have put in my life and I pray that you will bless each and every one of them. Amen.

Well, I'm 25 years old now...

I'm in an "I just exist" phase in life so bear with the blogs that you'll get lately. I don't really have any stupid/funny things to write about.

This weekend was pretty much celebrating my birthday. Friday night was fajitas with the family and a couple of friends. That was nice getting to see everyone... Saturday I went out with my roomie and one of my closest friends for dinner and a movie. Ruby Tequila's is definitely yummy and "Monster In Law" was pleasing to the eyes with Michael Vartan on the screen. How cute is he barefoot? ;) On a scale though, from 1-10, I'd rank the funny factor at a 6. I probably wouldn't own it if it wasn't for Vartan making appearances in the movie. Then Sunday, I went to Olive Garden with my parents and my grandma. That was yummy! And I learned of a fun little miracle but that will be talked about at a later date. Ooh, the suspense, I know. And Emily found out on Sunday that she got her "dream" job so that rocks for her.

So now I'm sitting here... pondering my life and the future. Its like looking into the future and seeing nothingness. Yes, I'd like a job, but apparently I'm not ready for the one I wanted. And if that job wasn't it, then I have no clue as to what I should be doing or where to look. Yes, I'd like to be married one day, but no evidence of that happening yet. And I'm not really burdened by being single, I'd just like to know that I wasn't going to be my whole life. Plus, to get another cat which I want so much, I need a hubby that Gus can transfer his loyalties to, jealous booger bear! Lately it seems like I'm real good with expressing negative emotions, not so good at even finding positive ones. So I'm just wondering what happened. A month or two ago and I would have been better than I would have been probably ever. It just went away...

So I'll just continue to sit... and wait and we'll see what God has in store.

It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.

Psalms 118:8

Isn't it crazy how emotions are?

I've been plagued the past couple of weeks with feelings of jealousy/insecurity. Like yesterday, I just felt a little lonely and like I wasn't the best friend I could be to everyone... Or I've had feelings of being "second best" which isn't really the case I know. I know these things aren't true in my head, I just can't stop from being distracted by them. But I was feeling a little "second best" in regards to the job situation and with some friends I have... so crazy. So I'm sitting on the ground outside last night watching the lightning, and having Gus fly by me with various pieces of trash in his mouth like he was being timed to see how fast he could destroy things and then I just felt better.

Go to this morning... having the same feelings yet I come back from lunch and I'm ok now. Maybe I just needed to feel healthy or something. LOL I stopped by Subway and got a turkey sandwich. The verdict is still out on whether I really like cucumbers on my sandwich, but since it isn't gross, I keep adding them so I get more veggies.

It's just crazy how my emotions can change so easily... so much for the emotional stability I thought I was having! :) Well, the plus side of the weekend is that I'm having a family birthday party tonight and I actually managed to find a couple of friends to come too! Then tomorrow I get to go to the movies, which is definitely one of my all time favorite things to do. Most likely, I'll be seeing "Monster In Law"... hello, Michael Vartan! Then Sunday is my birthday so I'm going to go out to lunch with my parents and grandma... and that's about it for the weekend!

I hope y'all are having a nice Friday, looking forward to a great weekend and are a little more emotionally stable than me! :) *this font matches my shirt today*

I stole this quote...

"If I trust in a God that's all-powerful, all-knowing, all-present, and
most
importantly, loves me, then I trust Him to be up to whatever's best for me
in this area."

I saw someone quote this in a post today. So I decided to "take" it for my own. I have so many areas lately that while they don't bug me all the time, I need to trust God with more. Lately, its my career, but at times, it is finances or love or friendships. So I'm just going to choose to repeat this over and over again until it is something that I truly believe, not just know to be true.

Amber, Michael O'Leary, Me

Here's the gang!

(L to R) Cheryl, Amber, Christy, Me and Terri

Well, its Monday...

I hope everyone has a good start of the week...

I found out late last night that I didn't get the job I wanted at "B". I'm not really sure why I was so "certain" that I would get the job but I was. Just a bunch of little things seemed to fit together to where I thought I would. Of course, I was trying to tell myself not to get my hopes up, but too late. So now I'm at a total loss on what to do... I have another job opportunity that I find out about this week. The people there (for the most part) were really nice and seemed to care about my "future" and not just the current job, but it seems so lacking now. I guess we'll see if I get an offer or not.

I'm definitely a little annoyed and confused at God though. He knows that the two things that have caught my interest in the past were homebuilding and charity/nonprofit places. So why tempt me with a job that has a little of both in it. That's what I don't get. What was the point of putting me in the presence of a company that I would love to work for not just once, but TWICE? Then it gets taken away because He leads them to another person that's right for the job. Don't get me wrong, I am happy that they found someone that was "best" for the job... the people that work there and the company deserve it. And the lady there sent me a really sweet letter that was encouraging and praying that I'll find where God wants me to be. And maybe it is a test... I keep talking about waiting on God's timing and how I actually do want to do His will in my life... but I really wouldn't mind if He had given me this job. I know that's the easy way out but it would still seem like He's listening and answering my prayers instead of getting stuck waiting again and again and again. Especially since coming up fairly soon is my "one year" anniversary of looking for a new job.

I know this whole thing will pass, and eventually I'll see God's plan and be happy with it, but I just feel lost, confused and hurt at the moment. Wasn't this the "perfect" Monday post? ;)

John and I... gotta love blushing, but hey, I just got swooped in his lap.

Amazing Race - Marco Island

*This was originally written as Frick and Frack but I changed them to H and Amber. Keep in mind, this was written at 1:30AM w/ little sleep all weekend. All events are true w/ the exception of embellishments about Christy's love life. :)
The Players:
Heather-aka, Frick, Princess Di,and Nicole
Amber-aka, Frack, Fergie, and Paris
Christy-aka, Hot Totti's Hottie
Terri-aka, The Photographer
Tommy-aka, CoronaMan - Cheryl's hubby
Cheryl-aka, Scooper(she knows all the good stuff)
Anoymous Man-aka Creepy
Boat Captain-aka Captain Crunch
Hot Totti- the bell hop at our hotel
"Hootchie" - an actress
RPG- Ricky Paull Goldin (my puppy's namesake)
John - John Driscoll, "Coop" on GL
Dougie - Doug Hutchison "Sebastian" on GL -also was creepy guy on "The Green Mile"
*Names may be changed to protect the innocent*

Team-"WHO TALKS FIRST?"
Day 1- Flights and Driving Time. Christy starts 1st love affair with Hot Totti. Quietness reigns among H and Amber.
Day 2- Friday Night-Dolphin Watch/Private Party. Get aboard "Rambling Rose" yacht. Dolphins and Stingray sightings. Captain Crunch guided our 3 hour tour much to Christy's delight. The Team offered to get a photo with Christy and the Captain but she explained that he had been in the back of her mind all year so it wasn't needed. While on the boat, Christy was approached by Creepy, the two chatted for the entire ride. A connection was made. Drama between Captain and Creepy over Christy begins. Later we arrive for the private party at Alan Jackson's Multi Million dollar mansion(That's Hot). There was a name check at the door and valet parking. Quietness continues amongst the underdog team. After a pep talk from Jamie*, our drunken hostess, we encounter Terri, Christy, and Cheryl talking to John Driscoll(That's Hot). The team stood in silence in the presence at the sight of our 1st mission. John chatted about his life, and asked us questions we actually managed to answer. He then commented that he felt like getting in the pool with his shirt on, unfortunately he opted to remain dry. The gentlemanly John decided to head to the bar and asked us if we wanted a drink(That's Hot). We obliged and he arrived back with our drinks. As the conversation with John continued, Terri turns to "Hootchie" and delivers the funny, yet slightly cruel comment, "You're Dead!"(and that's Not hot!) As the teamates laugh, "Hootchie" makes an exit and John is soon gone as well. The Team goes to get pasta and sit in the corner with Christy, and Terri. Drunken Jamie* appears in a "happy state of mind" and scolds us for not mingling. So then the idea was born from Amber's mind on swiping the glasses that John brought us. The task, at first, was daunting,but clear heads prevailed. A plot was hatched, and put into motion.
ROAD BLOCK- Tight security! There were several security guards and cameras in the mansion. Luckily our dear buddy Tommy was headed out on his first on many smoke breaks. We managed to escape when Alvin*(Head of Security) took his opportunity to "tail" RPG. A few moments later the glasses were safely outside the mansion.(High Five). Our next obstacle was to get the glasses to the get-away car. Terri gave advice on how to cover up the crime and we proceeded to the car. After encountering difficulty finding the key, The Team returned to the steps of Alan Jackson's mansion, where we found Tommy, lighting yet another cigarette. H came up with the idea to "borrow" the key from the Valet/Dog Walker. H and Amber obtained the key and safely hid the glassware. Mission Complete. NOT ELIMINATED!
Day 3 Morning- Day begins with primping. This event has 2 missions.
-Asking for pictures with John on the beach.
-Asking for Doug and Dinner in Marco.
ROAD BLOCK: Time constraints
At the Brunch the actors told jokes, did Q&A's and auctioned items. RPG chose our table, he sat down, asked everyone's name and chatted. RPG's comment when he finally recognized H from last yearwas "You've grown up!" (mmkay) He mentioned the "festive" decorations, and encouraged a lady to put the centerpiece in her purse(That's funny). Amber spent most of the table time wanting to push one of the ladies at Doug's table out of her chair. H kept an eye on John, who was a few tables away. Ricky was distracted by the "Pink Ladies"(loud obnoxious whores), he made fun of one, telling them to "Have another drink"(laughter)
Mission 1-Amber approaches John, takes picture, then asks John for another good pose, John thinks for a minute and then pulls out a chair so Amber can sit on his lap. Amber takes John aside, and asks him for 5 minutes on the beach with the team. John says "Sure, yeah, definitely". H gets her first picture with John, and sits on his lap(That's Hot) Mission Successful! Not Eliminated.
Mission 2-We approached Doug, who appeared to be incognito as Jack Nicholson(in cap and sunglasses). H asks Dougie to help two "poor girls" get a meal in Marco. Dougie, looking creepy yet hot, says, "I would love to"(That's Hot) but his weekend was booked(Thats Not Hot!) Pictures were taken, Amber hugged Dougie, he rubbed her back as she left, and she had her first mental black-out from excitement.Mission Semi-Successful. NOT ELIMINATED!


Day 3 Evening-The Team and friends head to dinner. Tommy and Cheryl were nice enough to buy us dinner. We chatted, had fun, and left for Blu Fusion. Someone had been smoking marijuana when they arrive, Terri notices the smell immediately(how? we're not sure;) 9:30pm Meet Dougie in the bar(he is no longer wearing his disguise, the hair is coiffed, he's looking hot), he takes a second and then recognizes Amber. Dougie goes to hug Amber(That's Hot) Amber says, what would be the lead off statement to every question that weekend..."Would it be wierd"...."if I touched your hair? Dougie, still a bit creepy, laughs a little, and says "sure"(That's Hot) Amber's fantasy of running her fingers through "that hair" is realized...Moving on. Spot John on the dance floor(wearing a black tank top and a fleece jacket), The team approaches John, before the Team can speak, John says" Wow! You girls look great"(That is SO Hot). More pictures are taken. John says he is sorry we couldn't take pictures today, but we will do it tomorrow(That's Hot). Meanwhile Dougie is being monopolized by "Ho Downs". Amber intervenes for her first moment on Doug's lap(That was SO hot, trust me)(H still finds Dougie creepy) The Team goes to the dance floor, Tom and John are there. John comes up to Amber, says "hey" and begins dancing and shaking his butt against Amber. Amber tries not to wet herself, while H looks on...pissed. Amber then gets sandwiched between John and Tom for a photo...H approaches for her sandwich, but is cut off at the pass by "Old Slut Girl". H's Fantasy Extinguished.....Later that night, John takes a perfect picture with Christy and sits at our table. John and H have a very close and intimate conversation(That's Hot)H gives John her number. John is giddy over the Milk Duds given to him by H. True to his nature, John shares his candy with the group. H gets another picture on John as he scoops her on to his lap(That's SO Hot). Talking continues until "Hootchie" rudely interrupts and hauls John off to the dance floor where she proves why she has her nickname. Dougie and John are on the dance floor with "Hootchie" and "Ho Downs", The team goes outside, and much to their surprise, find Tommy smoking. We soon encountered Mark Doo-bee(the team now knows where the smell came from) who was clearly off his face. After Amber's insistence of 15,000 pictures. H is able to get pictures enveloped in his arms. Next Target, Micheal O'Leary. Micheal gets H in an "embrace" and begins to grope her(That's Not Hot!) -- he was squeezing my side...
Final Day-Early Morning the team drives around Marco lookin for a doo-rag aka headgear aka bandana so Amber could give it to Doug. No one in Marco has ever heard of such a thing. Nothing could be found in Bealls(Be-Al's) except for a man scarf and some fake hair we were tempted to purchase for the "Pink Ladies". As a last resort the team takes their lives into their own hands and pulls over to ask two bikers where to find the doo-rag. After confused looks at the teams explanation of a doo-rag, one biker jokingly offers his own head gear for the completion of the mission. H's gullability makes her pause to consider the offer. Alas no deal was made. We moved on to find a pink paisley doo-rag but rejected it in favor of a "manly enough" leather bracelet(stamped by Tommy's approval, who was strangly not lighting or pulling out a cigarette)...We board the Marco Island Princess at noon. Dougie arrives and begins to mingle, approaches Amber and asks, "Where were you last night?(That's Hot). Amber replies, "I was in the bar". Dougie says, "I was on the dance floor, you should have come and grabbed me"(That's even more HOT!) Amber informs Dougie that she can't dance. Dougie doesn't believe that. Dougie sits down with Amber and she explains the morning mission. Amber then gives Dougie his gift, he says "I love this, I wear these all the time, thank you so much, will you put it on me?" As Amber puts the braclet around his wrist, her mind tells her that this gesture should make them legally married in 14 of the 50 states.A meaningful conversation ensues(That's Hot) A group of whorehoppers try to remove Dougie but he is firmly planted in his devotion to Amber. Amber sits on Dougie's lap, she tells H to hurry with the photo, that she is to heavy to sit on his lap. Dougie playfully tells Amber "oh hush" and bounces Amber up and down on his knee. Amber has second mental black out. Dougie tells H "That is a cute top". Amber gets jealous, and tells Dougie, "Excuse me! Do not be complimenting someone else while I'm sitting on your lap". Dougie laughs. Great pictures are taken. The relentless whorehoppers return, Dougie stands up....as they are fiddling with their cameras, Dougie leans back down and kisses Amber on the cheek. No words are exchanged, Amber looses brain cells. Dougie gives Amber "the stare" and then grabs her hand, and holds it while still being a gentleman, waiting for the whorehoppers. Dougie exits and tells Amber, "I'll see you in a bit". John comes out and talks to H again, then he sits on her lap John snaps a photo, then moves over to Amber's lap. John tells Amber to make a silly face. John and Amber stick out their tongues for the picture Amber "unknowingly" gets her hands dangerously close to John's crotch. John moves to Christy's lap and the perfect picture is taken. H asks John for a tongue picture, he makes a face like a goober, then does the MSN "Dead Smiley" on H....Michael O'Leary approaches the team, and we ask the boat captain to take our picture. A great, grope-free picture is taken, but the captain notices a passerby in the picture. "Hey! That guy was in your picture!" The captain angrily proclaims! MOL and team slowly inch away from the deranged captain, who may have beat Dougie in the creepy department. MOL asks if we have seen the drunken woman in a skimpy, slutty autographed dress. The team confirms that the woman has been spotted, and Micheal says "Oh Yeah, She wanted to have my baby". H does a hilarious imppression of "slutty girl" by sticking her own butt up on MOL(That's funny). We laugh and MOL moves on. Dougie walks up and says "Good-bye my dah-lings"(That's Hot). Dougie says "So next year..." Amber interupts and says, "You have to bring me something." Dougie says "Yeah! And next time you and I are going dancing(That's Hott with 2 -t's). Amber agrees with a nod, as she cannot speak, she manages to tell Dougie it was nice to meet him. Dougie goes in for another hug and kissed Amber on the cheek. H jumps in and hilariously demands, "You HAVE to kiss her again so I can get a picture". Dougie laughs and obliges(That's Hot). Dougie gives H the obligatory kiss on the cheek. Dougie says, "Goodbye dah-lings and blows a kiss as he walks away"(Damn that's HOT, even H admits that was HOT). Mission's Completed!
Final Thoughts:
*It takes teamwork to open a hotel door.
*A brazen hussy always needs an evil sidekick.
*When it comes to sleeping in Marco, You either get the hump or the crack. Capt. Crunch, if you read this, Christy said she prefers the hump ;)
*"Just a bit" is no longer a phrase to be mocked.
*Dan Gaither will never forget his two favorite "stalkers".
*Never expect to have a conversation with a drunk guy with out getting groped or a "How you doin?".
*In regards to Mark Dobies, objects are larger in real life than they appear on tv.
*Never try to find a hide a key in the dark.
*Mailboxes have mutiple purposes.
*We're Hot for Once-That's Hot!
*Never take a "stalk walk" without insect repellent. (H's 21 mosquito bites just on her back)
*Doug's Carrots
*Never climb onto Alan Jackson's mansion roof top by ladder unless your team member is present.
*Tom Pelphrey only think's it's "weird" if you show up at his apartment with his dead cat in your hands.
*God Bless America and Marco Island
Next Mission: Marco Island Spring 2006 Frack's date with Dougie; Frick and John on the beach

I'm back!

Hello everyone! I hope y'all had a great weekend! Florida was so nice and the weather was wonderful. Minus the fact that on a "stalk walk" as Amber likes to call them, we were out at night for like 20-30 minutes and I got about 21 mosquito bites just on my back. Lovely.


Well, I'll write up a full update on the past weekend with some pictures as soon as I get them loaded.


Say a prayer for me... I had a second interview with one job yesterday which was ok. I didn't really like the lady that I talked to that time. But then I had an interview w/ "B" and a job that is in their ministry department. I'm very excited about that one and I'm praying that God puts me where He wants me to be though. I'm dealing w/ some insecurities at the moment so I'm praying that God will get those away from me too.

I'll update soon... and what's with the weather? Cold and misty and its already May?!