MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I just want to wish all of you a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. Remember to think about the reason for the season over the weekend... And for the family and friends that aren't in L-town, have a wonderful holiday week and safe travel! I love you, cousins!

Please be praying for my family over this weekend and New Year's... it is going to be different without Grandma here and probably tough on my mom.

I'll be back to work on the 3rd so I will definitely update then! Take care and God bless!

My current thought...

So I've been trying to find the positive in everything lately... and it really helps. Although, for some reason, the start of the Christmas season brought out my insecurities a little more. Which, of course, is always lovely.

But this is my current thought: When is it going to be that a guy I like will actually like me back?!? Come on already! There's this one guy in particular that is not my usual type (as in he's farther from my height than my usual closer to my height)...

I do know that God has someone amazing in store for me, that will be better than I can imagine (although not in a fairy tale sort of way). I know that God has blessed me from being in relationships that didn't last because that saves me from most heartache. And I know He is listening, even when I don't really like the outcome. For ex, the cute waiter... yep, I prayed that if God didn't want it to happen, then the door would shut... and I've been back four times and no Kyle. Which isn't fun when you just want to fill like someone has an interest in you! Especially since he rarely gets a night off! LOL I'm just kind of wishing it would happen... I guess God is still teaching me patience and I know that it will be worth the wait when it happens.

So for today, even the positives aren't really helping me with what I want in my life... so I'll keep praying!

oooh, 2 posts in one day.

Merry Christmas!

I can't believe that it is only four days 'til Christmas! It still doesn't seem like Christmas time... although last Friday, it did snow for about an hour... didn't stick.

Not much new to report... I may have the opportunity to switch jobs within my department. We're opening a new position for Coordinator so I'd be dealing more with all the event planning in the College. That's a little unnerving but I think it is something that I can learn. So I'm not sure when that might happen, hopefully in the next few months, and the fun thing is that I'd get more money too! YEA! :) But I'm just praying... I know that it was all God that put me in this position, so we'll see if this other one is for me.

I hope everyone has a good Wednesday!

Happy Friday!

I can't believe that Christmas is a week away... I don't know what exactly is different, but it doesn't really feel like Christmas time to me.

I thought y'all might want to check out something that got me so hyper this weekend. It might not be anything cool to y'all but I love it. It's a new subdivision that is being built early next year. It's called Vintage Township and will be between Quaker and Slide on 114th Street. THey will have two "town centers" with markets, little shops and entertainment. I just think its amazing and hope that in the next few years, I can move there! www. vintagetownship.com

Thinking back over 2005...

So this weekend got me thinking on how I thought of 2005. It always seems that with another year ending, things don't change that much. I can't really say the same for this year though. I hit the quarter of a century mark and of course, that made me think of how "my" timeline wasn't really matching up with what God has in store... Then there's been loss this year, and not to equate animals being on the same level as humans... but my cat Ashes being put to sleep in April, then Grandma at Thanksgiving, and over the weekend, Daisy being put to sleep. So with turning 25, "lives" closest to me during my childhood have gone. Friendships have gone through changes and some have seemed to pass from this season in my life.

But 2005 hasn't been totally bad. I've made a good friend/mentor with meeting with Lucilynn each week this year. And congrats to Lu on having baby Emma Noelle last week! Our small group might not be "growing" but we are getting more regulars and actually hanging out some now! We are looking forward to the birth of Ellie in the near future. I switched jobs this summer and that was definitely a blessing. Even though it can still be overwhelming and a lot of work, it has been wonderful being needed and having my coworkers in my life. Then one of the best weekends was back in April with me going to Marco Island again. I got to meet my dear friend, Amber and that is definitely a cherished relationship. I think I've grown some over the past year too... I've been more able to be positive and thankful to God for what I do have... and a little more patient with waiting on God's timing for things. Although it has been a tad bit more difficult the past couple of weeks or so!

So here's hoping that 2006 will bring more good times, more growth and a closer relationship to God. And I can't wait to see the new things in store for the year with Ellie and possible trips to Marco Island and Italy!

I hope that y'all are doing well. 13 days till Christmas!

The Christmas Season

I'm so glad that it is finally the start of December... I love the Christmas season. Everyone seems to be a little more mindful of giving (and not just where presents are concerned) and I love the way everything is decorated and clean. Last Friday was the Carol of Lights. I went to it with a few people from the singles group and it was so much fun actually hanging out in a group. It's been so long since I've done that and we had a great night. First, the Carol of Lights, and then we went to dinner at Ruby Tequilas (I thought of you, Jana). Then we went home and watched "Elf" which I hadn't seen before, but unforunately, I fell asleep.

It seems that lately I'm struggling a little more with insecurities about the way I look and going through the whole single thing. I think I'm noticing couples more and more too... I'm trying to fight the whole insecurity thing because I do know that one day my future husband will think I'm beautiful... and hey, at least that cute waiter from Rooftop found something appealing about me! As for seeing couples more, yesterday I went with my mom to the airport to pick up this lady for mom's work. Well, as I'm waiting in the car, there's guys coming out and they were so excited to see their significant others. It's weird to be happy for someone that you don't know, but I was. I know they probably all have their troubled times, but you could see how in love they were with their girlfriends, wives and kids. I know I don't think about wanting marriage as much as wanting to have a man in my life, just b/c I haven't had that first... and I know that 25 is still sort of young, but... still. I do know that by keeping in my thoughts that God's timing is perfect and that He has someone amazing in store for me is helpful. I just wish I could get this desire out of my head for a little while.

So that's where my thoughts have been lately... I'll try to post soon!